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Sep. 28th, 2015 03:40 pm( Gloom cut. )
Cut for a person talking about which medications they are taking.
( One of the top ten worst topics. )
( One of the top ten worst topics. )
Admission that makes me sad
Feb. 1st, 2014 01:36 amI've been more talkative online and IRL than usual today, because I took some kratom after a break, and said semi-illicit substance broke me out of a four-day-long nearly-unbroken fit of Republican-related rage.
I did stop to get mad at my medical insurance company instead a couple times, but every other second of those days was like: "there's a houseboat. How many Republican congresspersons can feasibly fit on this houseboat, how can I get them on there, and how can I get them out to sea before they notice?" There is no discrete object upon which I have laid my eyes, these past few days, that has not been complicit in an imagined act of cruelty towards conservative officeholders.
Basically I don't know why they want to ban kratom, I didn't come up with even a single nasty campaign stunt for my run against Rand Paul today.
(I'm too young to run against Rand Paul. But if he knows what's good for him, he'll have retreated to his dystopian underwater city powered by little girls' dreams by the time I'm legal for it.)
I did stop to get mad at my medical insurance company instead a couple times, but every other second of those days was like: "there's a houseboat. How many Republican congresspersons can feasibly fit on this houseboat, how can I get them on there, and how can I get them out to sea before they notice?" There is no discrete object upon which I have laid my eyes, these past few days, that has not been complicit in an imagined act of cruelty towards conservative officeholders.
Basically I don't know why they want to ban kratom, I didn't come up with even a single nasty campaign stunt for my run against Rand Paul today.
(I'm too young to run against Rand Paul. But if he knows what's good for him, he'll have retreated to his dystopian underwater city powered by little girls' dreams by the time I'm legal for it.)
Preserved here for posterity.
( 'HighQualityKratom.com review, by ljc79 )
At this point, I noticed that the ljc79 account had been deleted. I wonder why.
( 'HighQualityKratom.com review, by ljc79 )
At this point, I noticed that the ljc79 account had been deleted. I wonder why.
My Seer of Doom powers come with a price.
Aug. 9th, 2013 11:54 pmMaybe? Maybe I'm being paranoid. I just worry that being an effective Seer may require developing a substance abuse problem.
( Cut for dumb formless angst. )
( Cut for dumb formless angst. )
Arguing with drug dealers and their probable sockpuppets on Reddit.
I wonder where all these downvotes I get come from. It is a mystery.
I wonder where all these downvotes I get come from. It is a mystery.
Serious Brain Science
Jun. 22nd, 2013 03:32 pmI'm thinking of doing a kratom double-blind test on myself to see which varieties work best for my purposes. Because studies performed on just one person definitely yield useful data! This is the methodology I've come up with:
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Suspension of kratom experiment.
May. 31st, 2013 04:47 pmthegeekgene and I are basically twins now. I mean, except for the fact that she's much more attractive than me, and also taller?
But neither of us ever shuts up about Homestuck, we have matching medical problems, and today we unintentionally got matching haircuts.
I talked to my psychiatrist about the kratom today, and she grimaced at me and suggested that I try taking Wellbutrin along with the Lexapro instead. I said okay.
"You're so agreeable!"
"Well, I mean, I'm willing to try it. As I've demonstrated, I'm willing to try stuff I ordered off the internet in baggies! I just don't promise I'll stay on it."
I promised her that I'd stop using the kratom for the duration, because you shouldn't be altering more than one variable at once when you experiment on your brain. This phrasing produced a resigned sigh.
So, yeah, suspending the kratom experiment for at least a few weeks in order to give the Wellbutrin a fair shot. My preliminary results are: When used in conjunction with Lexapro, kratom's pretty decent as an anti-depressant, as long as you keep some caveats in mind, those being: you'll build up a tolerance over time; it doesn't last all day; taking too large a dose will make you sleepy rather than energizing you; different varieties and different vein colors give very different results, so you can't just substitute one for another without testing.
For the last day of the experiment, and because thegeekgene and I drove a lot today and I'm exhausted, I decided to take a teaspoon of Maeng Da again. It's one of the most popular kinds of kratom, but last time I took it too soon after something else, so it just kind of knocked me out. By itself, it basically just makes me really want to look at cheerful fanart of Jade Harley playing with animals. Is that the effect you're supposed to get? No wonder this stuff's so popular.
Remember how in Lawstuck I had Jade, Feferi, Nepeta, and Roxy living together in a decrepit old farmhouse full of animals they kept bringing home? Can't someone just draw me some art of that scenario? That's what Maeng Da does to me, it makes me want that specific thing.
But neither of us ever shuts up about Homestuck, we have matching medical problems, and today we unintentionally got matching haircuts.
I talked to my psychiatrist about the kratom today, and she grimaced at me and suggested that I try taking Wellbutrin along with the Lexapro instead. I said okay.
"You're so agreeable!"
"Well, I mean, I'm willing to try it. As I've demonstrated, I'm willing to try stuff I ordered off the internet in baggies! I just don't promise I'll stay on it."
I promised her that I'd stop using the kratom for the duration, because you shouldn't be altering more than one variable at once when you experiment on your brain. This phrasing produced a resigned sigh.
So, yeah, suspending the kratom experiment for at least a few weeks in order to give the Wellbutrin a fair shot. My preliminary results are: When used in conjunction with Lexapro, kratom's pretty decent as an anti-depressant, as long as you keep some caveats in mind, those being: you'll build up a tolerance over time; it doesn't last all day; taking too large a dose will make you sleepy rather than energizing you; different varieties and different vein colors give very different results, so you can't just substitute one for another without testing.
For the last day of the experiment, and because thegeekgene and I drove a lot today and I'm exhausted, I decided to take a teaspoon of Maeng Da again. It's one of the most popular kinds of kratom, but last time I took it too soon after something else, so it just kind of knocked me out. By itself, it basically just makes me really want to look at cheerful fanart of Jade Harley playing with animals. Is that the effect you're supposed to get? No wonder this stuff's so popular.
Remember how in Lawstuck I had Jade, Feferi, Nepeta, and Roxy living together in a decrepit old farmhouse full of animals they kept bringing home? Can't someone just draw me some art of that scenario? That's what Maeng Da does to me, it makes me want that specific thing.
Last daily post about the kratom stuff.
May. 28th, 2013 11:27 pmI mean, I'm sure it's getting fairly tedious! So I'm going to keep my health diary private henceforth. I'll post again when I've got an idea of whether it's going to keep working in the long term.
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Kratom prattle.
May. 27th, 2013 03:47 pmMy drug experiment totally interfered with my fanfic publication schedule. Sorry about that, everyone. I'm going to have to do the things you do in movies to fix a drug problem: Put my head in my hands late at night to a blaring soundtrack, exercise strenuously with a tortured expression, slump on a park bench and regard a stray dog with dull empathy, and finally awkwardly join hands with my estranged heterosexual romance object.
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2nd day no kratom.
May. 23rd, 2013 07:55 pm( Read more... )
There are a lot of hobbies that don't make much sense to me, but collecting faithful replicas of stock cars is just fabulously incoherent. The things are are just dangerously motile billboards for unhealthy crap - McDonalds, sugary cereals, managed mutual funds, etc - so why would an adult pay for little replicas of the things? Collectors, Quicken Loans should be paying you for the immeasurable psychic burden you take on by owning this absurd object.
It would kind of make sense to me if the cars had actual functioning engines you could take apart and fiddle with, but they're just like the little rubberband cars kids play with, except bigger and uglier. The windows and doors don't even open, and the chassis doesn't seem to have the openings necessary to install a little remote control engine or whatever.
This "Bud Light / Mothers Day 2003 Camaro" provides me with no viable means to hassle my pets, Action Diecast. Your product is a terrible failure.
There are a lot of hobbies that don't make much sense to me, but collecting faithful replicas of stock cars is just fabulously incoherent. The things are are just dangerously motile billboards for unhealthy crap - McDonalds, sugary cereals, managed mutual funds, etc - so why would an adult pay for little replicas of the things? Collectors, Quicken Loans should be paying you for the immeasurable psychic burden you take on by owning this absurd object.
It would kind of make sense to me if the cars had actual functioning engines you could take apart and fiddle with, but they're just like the little rubberband cars kids play with, except bigger and uglier. The windows and doors don't even open, and the chassis doesn't seem to have the openings necessary to install a little remote control engine or whatever.
This "Bud Light / Mothers Day 2003 Camaro" provides me with no viable means to hassle my pets, Action Diecast. Your product is a terrible failure.
Kratom fail
May. 21st, 2013 12:31 pmI didn't sleep much last night - my muscles were cramping from all the digging I did, and my stomach was upset. So when I got up I forgot I was taking a break and mixed the stuff into my breakfast like usual. I'm kind of impressed I managed to measure it out while in that state.
(On less than five hours of sleep I'm pretty much a zombie before breakfast; I bang into things, move my stuff around, and have conversations, then can't figure out later why my glasses are in the sink.)
Anyway, my muscle pain from all the digging I did yesterday started feeling better right away, so I'm calling it a win. Still pretty tired, though.
(On less than five hours of sleep I'm pretty much a zombie before breakfast; I bang into things, move my stuff around, and have conversations, then can't figure out later why my glasses are in the sink.)
Anyway, my muscle pain from all the digging I did yesterday started feeling better right away, so I'm calling it a win. Still pretty tired, though.
