Kratom prattle.
May. 27th, 2013 03:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
snarpMy drug experiment totally interfered with my fanfic publication schedule. Sorry about that, everyone. I'm going to have to do the things you do in movies to fix a drug problem: Put my head in my hands late at night to a blaring soundtrack, exercise strenuously with a tortured expression, slump on a park bench and regard a stray dog with dull empathy, and finally awkwardly join hands with my estranged heterosexual romance object.
The kratom I took in the evening on Saturday night - Maeng Da and green-veined Thai - kept me awake late, and when I did get to sleep I kept waking up. Lesson learned: those varieties are only for use in the morning, and in smaller quantities than what I used.
Mom says she usually can't tell when I've been using kratom, but that yesterday morning I was definitely still hyper. Rather than trying something new that might make it worse, I took a half teaspoon of red-veined Indonesian kratom and a half-teaspoon of green, because I know those chill me out. They worked pretty nicely, but I was too tired to get much done in the morning, and ended up taking a long nap.
I got up in the late afternoon, but I was pretty unfocused and vague; maybe this is what a kratom crash feels like. I was having trouble typing coherent sentences, so I took breaks in between fiddling with my vampire/wizard femmeslash to read Rubyquest. Don't read Rubyquest when alone in the house! Around ten I found a window open that I hadn't remembered being open. I had a heart attack and am typing this while dead.
I'd really wanted to get the thing last night, but I was just too groggy to be sure it was coherent, so I eventually gave up and went to bed. I got up and did a final check this morning when I fed the pets, but I was still tired, so I went back to bed and slept until 2:30.
When I got up, I took a teaspoon of white-veined Borneo, which didn't wake me up with the speed the green-veined varieties I've used does. I can definitely feel it now, an hour and a half later, but it snuck up on me. It feels fairly pleasant, not overwhelming, and I'm focusing pretty well, I think. We'll see how long it lasts.
(To be clear: This is the worst problem I've had while using kratom, and it's something I've done to myself plenty of times in the past with caffeine. It's dumb and I'm mad at myself about it, but it's not a huge deal.)
The kratom I took in the evening on Saturday night - Maeng Da and green-veined Thai - kept me awake late, and when I did get to sleep I kept waking up. Lesson learned: those varieties are only for use in the morning, and in smaller quantities than what I used.
Mom says she usually can't tell when I've been using kratom, but that yesterday morning I was definitely still hyper. Rather than trying something new that might make it worse, I took a half teaspoon of red-veined Indonesian kratom and a half-teaspoon of green, because I know those chill me out. They worked pretty nicely, but I was too tired to get much done in the morning, and ended up taking a long nap.
I got up in the late afternoon, but I was pretty unfocused and vague; maybe this is what a kratom crash feels like. I was having trouble typing coherent sentences, so I took breaks in between fiddling with my vampire/wizard femmeslash to read Rubyquest. Don't read Rubyquest when alone in the house! Around ten I found a window open that I hadn't remembered being open. I had a heart attack and am typing this while dead.
I'd really wanted to get the thing last night, but I was just too groggy to be sure it was coherent, so I eventually gave up and went to bed. I got up and did a final check this morning when I fed the pets, but I was still tired, so I went back to bed and slept until 2:30.
When I got up, I took a teaspoon of white-veined Borneo, which didn't wake me up with the speed the green-veined varieties I've used does. I can definitely feel it now, an hour and a half later, but it snuck up on me. It feels fairly pleasant, not overwhelming, and I'm focusing pretty well, I think. We'll see how long it lasts.
(To be clear: This is the worst problem I've had while using kratom, and it's something I've done to myself plenty of times in the past with caffeine. It's dumb and I'm mad at myself about it, but it's not a huge deal.)
