Kratom Experiment 5
May. 19th, 2013 05:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
snarpSlept until about 1:00 PM again today and felt really groggy and unpleasant when I did get up. My sleeping pill was inadequate to the task of conquering last night's bout of insomnia, so I didn't get to sleep until after three in the morning.
I put a teaspoon of the milder kratom in my breakfast smoothie, as per the established program, and like usual it woke me up and made me feel somewhat less Eeyore-ish. I read for a while, worked on one of my nerd projects, and talked to a friend of my parents' who came over.
No, this totally qualifies as an accomplishment! Social interaction with someone I don't know well is hard for me.
I'm kind of wiped out now, though. I know I picked up this computer planning to do something specific, but I can't remember what it is, so I'm just sitting here posting about drugs now. I was in the middle of reading something on my Kindle, but that exasperating piece of technology has yet again ceased to function. I do not presently have the mental wherewithal to figure out what I was reading and how far in I was, so I can keep going on another device.
That's how depression works for me: I don't even care enough about what I was reading to remember the title. In high school and college I would sometimes get through four or five books a week, so this is pretty grim for me.
I'm not going to take more of the stuff today, I think. From what I've read, I probably didn't pick the best variety for energy/concentration, and I don't want to use too much and build up a tolerance before I've tried something better suited to the task. I've been price-comparing (made a spreadsheet yesterday and everything) and I'm going to order some small packets of a few different varieties that work better for this.
I put a teaspoon of the milder kratom in my breakfast smoothie, as per the established program, and like usual it woke me up and made me feel somewhat less Eeyore-ish. I read for a while, worked on one of my nerd projects, and talked to a friend of my parents' who came over.
No, this totally qualifies as an accomplishment! Social interaction with someone I don't know well is hard for me.
I'm kind of wiped out now, though. I know I picked up this computer planning to do something specific, but I can't remember what it is, so I'm just sitting here posting about drugs now. I was in the middle of reading something on my Kindle, but that exasperating piece of technology has yet again ceased to function. I do not presently have the mental wherewithal to figure out what I was reading and how far in I was, so I can keep going on another device.
That's how depression works for me: I don't even care enough about what I was reading to remember the title. In high school and college I would sometimes get through four or five books a week, so this is pretty grim for me.
I'm not going to take more of the stuff today, I think. From what I've read, I probably didn't pick the best variety for energy/concentration, and I don't want to use too much and build up a tolerance before I've tried something better suited to the task. I've been price-comparing (made a spreadsheet yesterday and everything) and I'm going to order some small packets of a few different varieties that work better for this.
