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I am glad that I have normal and healthy sleep patterns and do not spend whole days sleeping before switching gears into a charred-feeling and similar-intractable angry insomniac stupor. I am glad that this is the case, and the other thing, is not.

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I had insomnia and headaches all the time in high school and college, and that being the time period in which I decided what I was supposed to feel like, I feel most like myself now when sleep-deprived and headachy. I no longer hear voices, which was also part of it, but I can accept this specific compromise in personal authenticity.

The sensation of being in the right part of my head doesn't last as long now, though. I can't let myself stay tired for as long.

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:/

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So remember when doomed-Rose's dream-self merged with non-doomed-Rose?

The mechanic at work had damn well better be somehow usable here. Situation unacceptable.