I Am Completely Serious

I wish I had more concrete things to say to this, but they're all kind of melting into incoherence. Gonna babble at the text prompt and hope the result is vaguely on-topic and not devoid of substance.

I hope you don't become that person again too, but from limited experience of you, I'd say the danger's not particularly imminent. Maybe not as far away as one would prefer -- sometimes we worry about this shit because excessive fretting and sometimes we worry because we see plausible ways it could happen, and hearing your narrative here it's easy to see the fingerprints of past-you there in current you (even though current-you is, to my experience, quite a different person), and so much of it is under the control of Weird Brain And Biology Shit that may or may not respond favorably to... whatever. Still, that's kind of an impressive feat of self-engineering, and it probably doesn't go away overnight. You've had bad spells, but just as you can't get the time back, you also don't move neatly backwards here.

I know the wasted time feels entirely too well, though.