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- Tag: t: homestuck - This blog is currently pretty much only about Homestuck and my brain problems. And maybe Homestuck is a delusion I'm having! And this is just, like, some folie à deux shit when people comment on my posts about it as if they're familiar with the subject matter. So, it could be it's just a blog about my brain problems.

- Tag: Kazuya Minekura's blog - Kazuya Minekura, the artist of the amazing Gensoumaden Saiyuki, was diagnosed with some pretty serious health issues a while back. She's been writing some very funny, angry, honest blog entries about her situation.

I've translated a number of these posts, but have fallen ridiculously behind; I encourage anyone else who'd like to pick up where I left off to do so.

- Post: The Very Small Problem - In the fall of 2010, I was diagnosed with a small tumor in my right frontal lobe. I was able to have it successfully removed in March of 2011, before it could cause any permanent brain damage. If it weren't for the existence of state high risk pools, a provision of 2010's Affordable Care Act - which some lawmakers are presently trying to repeal - it's very likely that I still wouldn't even know the tumor was there.

This post was written specifically to make American Republicans feel like jerks. I use my power for good, people.

- Tag: manga tropes - The Encyclopedia of Manga Tropes. Girl Power Corrupts may well be how you found this blog!

- Tag: a: kubo tite - In which I roundly scold Kubo Tite, artist of Bleach! Bleach vs Women and Bleach and power fantasies may well be how you found this blog! (Both of those posts contain spoilers up to chapter 395.)

- Post: TODAY I AM A DARKOVER BOOK may well be how you found this blog!

- Post: Anne Bishop does not CARE what you think and Heir to the Shadows may well etc.

- Tag: manga - I just talk about manga a lot in general.

- Tag: books - I also talk about sci-fi, fantasy, and paranormal romance novels a lot!

- Tag: i teach english - In 2009, I spent seven months teaching English to Japanese kids in Shibata, Japan. Wacky antics ensued!

- Tag: i study japanese - And in 2007-2008, I spent a year studying Japanese at the Yamasa Institute in Okazaki, Japan. Wacky antics ensued!
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Most of my nightmares are about lying on my back unable to move while something bad happens over me: I've been stabbed in the chest and am too weak to get up and the Bad Guy is about to stab my eye (I once started talking in my sleep during a dream like this and scared elongated_tito, who was in the same room), or someone's doing surgery on me and I'm still awake but can't move, or I'm hiding between two objects hoping the bad guy in the room doesn't look down, or I'm trying to use an immateriality charm that'll protect me from the RAIN OF KNIVES but if I move even a little... etc.

Or I've just fallen down and lost motor control while trying to do something important. I have occasional anxiety dreams like that: trying to walk but falling down every few steps, not being able to use my hands or talk. But this is usually just annoying or mildly frightening without the lying-on-my-back aspect - that's where it turns into something I'd classify as a nightmare.

The thing is, unless there's some childhood incident I've totally forgotten, I do not have significant real-life trauma like this. I never ended up lying on my back during any of my dumb kid fights, and the only time I recall someone actually knocking me completely off my feet, I landed on my side. And my three official Worst Traumas did not involve any physical violence. I think these nightmares are about another nightmare.

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Please note that I am not actually going to die, I just feel shitty.
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I dreamed about his new show that's basically just the dude being upset that women liked Madoka. A bunch of magical girls are at a magical girl boarding school, and each episode is about their vicious in-fighting, usually culminating in at least one death. Which is the purpose of the school - there can be only three magical girls at a time.

It takes a few episodes for the deaths to start. We're initially introduced to three specific girls as the protagonists, with one in particular, who's Robin Hood-themed and has invisibility powers, being set up as the heroine. A couple episodes in, Robin is thrown into conflict with one of the other two, panics, and kills her.

When she calms down, she immediately starts rationalizing what she did to herself and the two or three other kids who talk to her. Then, to drive home the point that this is not the first time Robin has killed another child, she finishes up the episode by killing three other girls.

There's a flashback episode about a girl with some sort of healing power, who we haven't seen at the school yet - we assume she's about to be recruited and will be the transfer student who becomes the new protagonist. She's trans and living with another trans girl, and it's pretty cute right until the other girl is horribly murdered. Then we move forward forty years and find out that healing-girl is the evil dean.
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I am definitely going to die in about an hour, two hours. Or eventually.
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...I guess we have a No-Ring-Required method of bringing Calliope back now!
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Am I throwing a tantrum because of brain (bad), guts (bad), or Homestuck (Buu arc)? I can't tell.
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I was honestly kind of disappointed that I didn't need a shaved spot of significant size the first time I needed my head cut open. It would have given me an excuse to shave my head! One needs an excuse to do that, you understand.

But maybe I'll need surgery again, and maybe this time I'll have my chance! If so, I'm going to get several awful $8 anime wigs in varying unlikely colors and spikiness-levels. It's the only way.
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me: why am i so dizzy, this is unacceptable, and largely, bad

*passes by mirror, is briefly confused by own face*

me: Oh, right, the glasses thing.
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I found one of those automated laser cat toys for $10, but 1) I had to spend like twenty minutes banging it on stuff to get it to start working, and 2) now that it is working, it's really loud.

It's distracting Buoyancy from his habitual acts of property damage without any input from me, though, so I guess it was a good purchase.
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Andrew Hussie did not feel like fucking around with Blender or some shit for the three-dees. He went to the store and got Play-Doh. Fuck your Blender or some shit, for the three-dees.
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Let us observe a moment of silence for my vision-correcting prostheses. They were ten years old.

(I’m going to get some Krazy Glue and try to fix them, because I fear change even on so trivial a scale, but the plastic’s gone brittle and weirdly-bubbly. So I just ordered a $10 set of replacements that look as much as possible like them.

For the moment I’m altering between sunglasses and my high-school-era set, which have a slightly-too-weak prescription. My face looks completely wrong. It is someone else’s face.)
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The closest I can come up with are:

* Dragon Ball fusion dance, obviously,

* Homestuck sprite-merges, and

* that skeevy Voyager episode where the transporter scrambles Tuvok up with Neelix, making a new guy who understandably does not want to be rendered non-existy again.

The closest analogue I'm coming up on an emotional/character level is Fukki from Houshin Engi, though. He's not quite a perfect example, plot-wise? He's one of those manga cases where someone's multiple personalities had separate physical bodies and ran with separate social circles, like Piccolo/Kami in Dragon Ball and Kaos/Den in Battle Angel.

In most cases like this, once the individuals fuse, they can't freely un-fuse again, and the final person looks and mostly acts like one of the two. The situation is usually basically "Person One Absorbs Person Two's "Powers," And Maybe A Few Useful Character Traits."

Fukki's the only case I can think of in which one of the two halves was the main character, and the two people have forgotten that they used to be one person. They spend several volumes arguing with each other and building up a rivalry/rapport. The merged individual still looks exactly like the hero, like in the other cases, but he has a new name and different relationships and priorities.

Anyone have other examples?
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I think what Girl Genius needs is for Tarvek to emerge from the Time Problem somehow possessed by HIS dad. Or his mom? It's just unfair to Agatha and Gil this way, is all.
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I'm basically behind "there should be no prescription drugs, they should all be available OTC" right now. Why is my insurance company refusing to pay for the stuff two different doctors have told me to take, and why does it cost four times more to get it from the pharmacy than to order it from overseas. Why do I need to get a painful unnecessary procedure done and listen to a lecture about diseases I am not at risk for to get a birth control prescription. Why do states keep banning kratom, that stuff is the only thing that works on my fatigue even temporarily.
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I need to get brain surgery so I can watch Steven Universe. It's very important.

Omens

Apr. 9th, 2015 05:10 pm
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I am sitting on the couch. A black cat peers around a corner at me. I don't have a black cat.

"- who the hell are you?!"

It bolts back outside the door which my own cats apparently opened for it. How did they do this.
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Remember the post where I said this?

I'm hoping more for something like a benign tumor on a gland. They cut me open and make the problem mostly go away again? ...I'm putting "benign tumor on a gland" on my birthday list.


Happy birthday to me, I have a tumor on my pineal gland! Plus a slight case of something called "cerebellar ectopia," which means basically my cerebellum is, uh, slouching?

I've been digging through medical sites for a few hours, and it doesn't seem like these problems are significantly harder to correct than the meningioma was. I will be seeing a neurologist from whom I will elicit more thorough explanations next week, and then will probably set up an appointment with the neurosurgeon who worked on me the first time.

I'm making plans to get upset about it tonight or tomorrow and start generating worst-case-scenarios, but I'm presently still in the "relief at getting a possible explanation that's not CFS/SEID" stage. And maybe they will do the surgery and the problem will mostly go away!

...This obviously makes me wonder what the fuck my head is up to. Why does it keep making tumors. Is it because I had too many dental x-rays as a kid? Do I have an unfortunate gene up in? Am I an intermediate step towards Jack the Bodiless.
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Notttttt sure how I feel about this! That one fanfic's going to be getting a lot of new readers, I think.

It's just, I don't want a new POV character, I want, like, Cordelia stomping around the galaxy messing with people's heads for three hundred pages. She goes on an adventure, with Elli, and they make out. And it ends up in a Space Tabloid and Miles's life is ruined. Yes, that's the book I want.
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Do non-bullshit scientists ever KickStart research they can't get get grants for?

Obviously this would be most useful for stuff you can make sound interesting to laypeople - more like "which of these natural supplements, if any, helps you achieve orgasm?" than "can we reproduce the results of the badly-designed study linking this gene to the ability to metabolize this substance?" - but it seems like it could be doable.

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